Your Loss

You were a coward.
You left.
You didn't see me crumble.
You didn't see me fall.
You didn't see the heartache.
     the pain.
     the sorrow.
     the longing.
You didn't see the tears.
You didn't see me shrink away.
You didn't see the sleepless nights.
You didn't see the hurt.
     the dreams.
     the memories.
     the constant reminders.
You didn't see the end.
     my end.
     the complete and unending blackness.

But.

You won't see my return.
     my laugh.
     my smile.
You won't see my wedding.
     my children.
     my joy.
You won't see my body.
     my touch.
You won't see my triumph.
     my bows.
You won't see my humor.
You won't see my grace.
You won't see my family.
    my friends.
    my heart.
You won't see my future.

And that is your loss.